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Update: 5 Things On The 5th (October 2019, And Then Some)

With my triumphant return to...well, something, I've got my five things that I've done this past month. If I delay too much, then when I'm 40 I'll look back at these things I've done and I'll wonder, what was I up to the summer and fall of 2019? I kind of fell off the face of the earth a little bit. Did I do anything of merit?

To which I say, hey 40 year old Emily, remember that mixtape? Yeah. (stupid grin) That was a good one.
  1. I brought my Anime Cantabile mix home to a recital in Columbus. It felt good to be playing on 'home turf,' and I really love the recital hall that I've been playing at. There wasn't a lot of turnout, but I'm working on that for my next recital.
  2. I played Beethoven's 5th in the SEOSO concert of the century. There was also banjo. It was awesome.
  3. My eyeglasses were seriously 12 years old, so I finally went and got some new ones. (I also got to have lunch with my grandma twice this month because of that. Twice!! And a sleepover!) I digress because I can see the individual leaves on trees again, and if that is not the definition of self care, I don't know what is.
  4. I started NaNoWriMo, and the rest of the world collectively breathed a sigh of relief, because it wouldn't be November without NaNoWriMo, and if I wasn't doing NaNoWriMo then we'd REALLY be in trouble.
  5. After nearly a year, my partner and I made the decision to evict our roommate. It was one of the hardest things to do, which then turned into one of the easiest, because she is now headed away from our city for more long term mental health treatment. I will probably never see her again, and I now have to make peace with that. I really hope that wherever she goes and whatever she does next, she learns how to be an adult, and she takes care of her children, and she learns what responsibility means. Meanwhile, I'm writing this from the room she slept in, and I have moved in my things, and perhaps this weekend I will see some music composition happen. You'd like that, wouldn't you?
Some other things I've done since I wrote last:
  • I wrote a list of where I want to be in five years. With some of the things I've done here, I hope I'm finally back on track where I need to be with that.
  • I QUIT SODA FOR COFFEE BECAUSE REASONS but probably not Cheerwine, let's be fair here!
  • I launched my new website! Complete with new mascot characters!!! (Their names are Polaris (the girl...kind of) and Sirius (the boy-ish) and they're both me, in a way!)
  • I went to Matsuricon and I didn't die this time! We planned ahead and I got lots of sleep every night. Mikkun had some hard times, but I'm glad we took care of me because I was able to take care of him, and we became even stronger for it.
  • I GOT A CAT. There will be a blog post about this at some point, I'm sure. 
  • I OBVIOUSLY DID THIS THING WHERE I KIND OF STUMBLED INTO BEING A FAN OF BANGTAN SONYEONDAN (and I regret NOTHING!!!)
  • I discovered that it's totally okay to be angry. You just have to find a way to make the anger productive instead of just being mad all the time, or hiding it (which is worse IMHO)
  • I played at my first convention! And I had three people watch me and IT WAS AMAZING
  • I finally got to Cedar Point, and Top Thrill Dragster was closed for the day, but it's okay because Kings Island is getting a giga and Cedar Point's 150th anniversary is next year and IT'S GOING TO BE AMAZING.
Have you all noticed how many caps are in this entry? I introduced my friends to the spoon theory regarding energy and chronic illnesses. Ladies and gentlemen, I no longer run on spoons. I run on sugar. 
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