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Update - 5 Things On The 5th (May 2018)

I just turned 30, and I was thinking of all of the things I want to do in my 30's. Now, I'm not making an express goal, although I know there are certainly a few things I want in life. Instead, I figured it would be good every 5th of every month (since I was born on the 5th) to go over 5 things that I did. Not 5 things I learned, not 5 things I want to do -- five things I physically did this month. So here is my list for this month:
  1.  While on vacation, I went on morning walks on the beach, going out to low tide and going exploring. Away from phones and stresses, I was able to focus fully on Jesus. I've kept these morning walks going, even when they're hard, even just by going around the neighborhood once or twice if time allows. No stresses, no distractions, just Jesus and whatever might be on my mind.
  2. As mentioned in this same blog, I found something I had been searching for for a long time. I didn't need to find it, but finding it has enabled me to live with so much more peace that I wasn't even aware I wasn't receiving.
  3. I absolutely fell in love with Nostalgia! Not the feeling, the BEMANI game! I'm sure I'll post a lot about it over at my Akiba Idol Emily stuff, but it's basically if you took DDR and a piano and mashed them together. I really hope I get to play more often.
  4. I finally finished the first draft of pop'n music SYNESIRIS, my epic three-part BEMANI self-insert fanfiction. It will be a long time before it's released to the world - if ever - but I'm still really proud of myself for this accomplishment. Writing is hard, guys.
  5. This may be too much information, but after two years of the same exact ones, I bought new bras. It's the little things.
Hopefully this becomes a good practice.

In addition: as the time draws nearer, I'm really considering putting a slightly-updated Odyssey of Light series up here. It was originally written two years ago, and I want for it to serve as a good (if long) testimony for why I believe what I believe, and the things God has let happen to me. Thoughts?
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